Tired out

Everyone gets tired at some point in their lives. Now, I'm at that point.
Tired of living for others, tired of smiling for others. Tired of thinking for others, tired of doing anything for others.

I stayed in SD because of my parents, because of you. Because you said that we'd have no time to go out if I were to leave. Because my parents said I should stick on and TRY to finish the course as I'm already in there. Now that you're gone, I'm leaving because of myself. Its time anyway.

A big Fuck You to those who judge and think that I'm leaving SD because of a damn relationship.
I am smarter than to ruin my chances of being a Designer if I really had the passion for it.

So stop looking at me with those judgemental eyes, because you obviously don't know anything about me.

Halloween Horrors

USS for halloween horrors with the netballers. Pictures up when I actually get them. Shall blog about the past events in my life according to fb when I get everything settled. Lost the blogging bug. Bah. No one reads anywaaaaay. Today was........

Awesome, fun, scary. X

More birdshit, more luck

So..................I had bird droppings on my fringe just now. I'm a lucky girl :)

Please. I hope I can. God please help me because I really need this. And this time, its something more serious and important than a relationship. I need it to happen.

We found Love in a hopeless place

Sometimes its not up to me. I wish you were here.
Sometimes we really should not overthink. Because overthinking only leads to complications.

Dare to Love. Since we already made the decision to start, why stop and make each other so hurt when there's always a chance to make it right? I miss you.
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Decisions, decisions. If only I was rich.................I wouldn't have to worry about the school fees.
For this.....its all up to me.

To take something I like but have a risk of failing, or something I also like with no risk of failing, but the cert will be less recognised. WHY IS EVERYTHING SO TOUGH FOR ME NOW

:)

"以后不管发生什么事情，不管是谁先放开谁的手，或是谁留在原地，我们都要像现在一样，不要脸的拉住对方的手，我要以后我们的爱情里没有尊严，只有相守一生的执着"

For I am lost

"What if one day I run away from everyone and go lost?"

"I will find you. You must have your reasons for not telling me but I know eventually you will."

"What if you still can't find me?"

"I will search until I find you."

"What about your family and friends?"

"If you could leave them, I can too. Let me face it with you."
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September last year. Those were your words.
Will you find me now?

B-e-a-utiful

It will always be

I'll wait. As long as I can. I'm making myself a promise. Until the day I get too tired to carry on, I'll wait. If you ever change your mind, I'm here. Sorry for all the trouble. I honestly just wanted you back. I didn't mean to make everyone worry.

Maybe 6 months from now things will turn out to be different. I hope we meet again. Because Fate brought us together once. I didn't choose to meet you, and you didn't choose to meet me. We still met.

What's meant to be, will be.

Not mine anymore

I'm sorry I disappointed you. I'm sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry for constantly breaking promises. I'm sorry for taking you for granted. I'm sorry for still constantly creating trouble. I'm sorry for creating stress because it really isn't intentional. I'm sorry for all that because I don't know what else to do so I'm trying my best for that one last chance I need. I'm sorry because I really don't want you to leave. I'm sorry for all I've done to make you stay. All I did was only to fight for one last chance. I'm sorry. I'm terribly sorry.

If only I had one last chance. I'd do everything right. I don't want you to lose your trust in me. I don't want your love for me to fade. I miss you. Standing at my door. If only you're still mine now. Everything would be different. I would talk to you on the phone every single day till you reached home safe. I'd surprise you more and more because I know you love surprises. I would listen to what you have to say instead of changing topics. I would already be at the door waiting for you instead of you waiting for me to open the door. I would not fall asleep before you. I would hug you first if you forgot to hug me. I would fetch you to and fro the bus stop/taxi stand whenever you come by. I would not be jealous over people that don't matter. I would not blame you for the things I did wrong. I would learn how to apologise. I would kiss you through the phone every night even if you don't request for it. I would hold your hand everytime I'm walking with you. I would watch your favourite shows with you. I would watch Starwars again and again with you until even you get sick of it. I would make you the happiest boy alive if I could. I would show you I'm worth it. If only I could.............................I would hug you and never let you go again.

You're ignoring me now, I think you already hate me. I'm hurting now. I know how you felt when I did all that to you. All I'm asking for is for you to not leave me behind. I just need one last chance. But all I can do is wait. I don't know what will Time bring us. Will you forget me? Please give me one last try. Before I finally gather enough courage to disappear into thin air..............

Because of you

Chiang Mai

In a few hours!!!!!! :)

When I'm back I'll be legal so......................ITS TIME FOR SOME PARTYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9/10/11 SEEYA SG!!! :)