would have been

i guess......... i'm not over you.
no matter how mean you were.

i don't want to cry on random nights. falling asleep on wet pillows, waking up with puffy eyes.
i don't want to get reminded of all the things we did together.
making a fool outta ourselves in the toilet laughing at how stupid we looked while brushing teeth, me forcing you to watch chick flicks and you ended up falling asleep, you making me make ribena everytime you come over.........

now i feel something whenever i see the cup you always used, the place you'd put your bag, the shows you like to watch.
the songs which remind me of you.
i can't bear to delete them but i don't want to play them at all for fear i'd cry.

until now... i haven't got an answer.
and i never will.
because you chose to leave.
i hoped you'd ask me to stay.
not just by asking, but by your actions............
high hopes lead to bigger disappointments.
i was disappointed by you yet again.

even spelling the word 'disappointed' reminds me of you because you read my blog before we were together and offered to change it because i misspelled it.

was i not good enough?

no matter how hard i've tried, how much i cried.
i just keep wondering........
why would you do this to me?

siloso beach resorts

happy 17th yk! :>
finally 17 huh. HAHA
anyway thanks for the invite~ we had fun hehehe.
hope you had(and you're still having) fun too!

so........... yesterday meaning the 20th was impromptu-go-out-with-tiffy day.
and we managed to catch step up 3 at 14bux per ticket!
ridiculously priced lor!!!!!! feel so cheated.
but nonetheless the movie was great <3
natalie was SUPER HOT HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH
yes luke was damn hot too omfgwtfbbq i'd pay to watch it again.
just..... not 14bux. LOL

ohohoh and i received tao's text saying he saw me.
then i asked him why he didn't say hi.
his reply?
'later call wrong person i lao kui hahahahahahha'
SO CUTE RIGHT MY CLASS REP!!!!!!!

ok back on track. so after the movie we headed to sentosa!
for birthday boy yunkai's celebration.
was quite impromptu too because i only saw the texts and missed calls after the movie.
i think we damn steady because we went there right after packing food.
was fun because i saw the chalet people again after less than a week.
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
i love my friends! <3

and i'm off watching youtube videos again.
tata~

do or die

i notice this space here has been wordy for quite a few posts long.
maybe i finally realise the need to blog in proper english(with a bit of singlish and whats-not here and there).
remember there was this once someone told me to blog properly on my tagboard lor!!!
reason being i was already close to 17 and i should blog in proper english.

whatever.
maybe now i shall!
anyway, point of this post is....................

click to enlarge :>
some tips i figured out guys(those with girlfriends!!!!) would need especially since almost all of them don't have brains.
either that or they just think we girls aren't worth it.
so guys..........

to read or not to read, that's up to you, really :>

oriental

zhang zi yi.
chio right :(
the last picture above is my favourite.
picture credits to google.

memoirs of a geisha was one great movie with her as one of the female leads.
HAHA i think gong li is too old to be chio.
but she has that...... aura that makes her attractive!
just less attractive than zhang zi yi :>

this is the only picture i can find of her with the least make up on.
undeniably chio, still.
the contours of her face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please ignore the few freckles because i believe almost everyone has at least 1 freckle on the face.
i couldn't find a picture of her nude face that was big enough to post.
anyway i think she's so chio she deserves this post all to herself.

not like she cares but still.