Why

i want to be someone,
someone who is capable of studying and dg well.
someone who can balance well btwn studies, work and play.
someone who's a pillar of strength and support for those who need me.
someone who my friends love and respect.
someone who will grow up to be a leader, in smthg i am gd in.
someone who strives and does well in everything she does.
someone who saves all the orphans in the world.
someone who helps all the poor and homeless.
someone who gives all those who are in need what they need.
someone who saves all the animals from becoming extinct.
someone who gives all the unwanted animals a home.
someone who protects all the animals from getting hurt, unwanted, abandoned.
someone who can cut the roots of all evil.

why can't i be easily satisfied?
why can't i compare myself to pple who are better off than i am?
why can't i pass math?
why can't i have the will and ability to pass?
why can't i have the determination i need to pass?
why can't i be clever?
why can't i be rich?
why can't i be pretty?
why can't i be what i want?
why can't i HAVE what i want?
why can't i?

DAMNIT.