death

its been 4 days my family had been thr day in day out.
well maybe not me, but ive been thr every night.
i dont show it, but i feel the pain.
i dont know why you had to leave, but i guess its jst time.
the moment i saw aunt sit beside you in that rectangular wooden box, soaked in tears, i felt like crying.
but i walked away.
she said that now youre gone, she wldnt hv anyone to lean on.
i saw your face.
i felt like crying. really.
folded incense paper just now.
hope youre happy with all the angels up thr, and you'll meet ah gong, ah ma and zaffy too.

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cant even catch up with schwork.
so many things to be done and i swear etting them done isnt cheap.
YES I NEED TO PAY FOR THE CRAP I NEED TO DO.

- VAS silkscrn design by mon
- FDS comic strip proposals, 2 of em by tues
- GC 100shots by wed
- GC scrapbook on pics by famous photographers (my inspiration) by thurs
- OC presentation by fri

and making things worse,
nths ever gg well btwn me and you huh?
coz i get nth but excuses.
not even you trying to treat me better.
7MTHS AND NTH HAS CHANGED.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

excuses. EXCUSES. FUCKING EXCUSES.
IM SRY I PROMISED HAPPIER ENTIRES BUT WITH A FUCKED UP LIFE, NTHS EVER HAPPY.

liang court

the only shot not that fail tkn in the restaurant LOL
the rest were all blurry!!!
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that was on the photog day with class56 ppl @clarke quay :>
was thr til night and lightings were awesome!
took some chio pictures and i shall trnsfr them into the com now since im lazy to do any hwk HEHE

happy posts from now on....
no matter how bad i feel
cant stand the negativity in my life

but

i love you.
why is it so hard to?

did i give my heart to the wrong person?
tell me i didnt, will you?

and

you dont even need me in your life.
let alone put in your best.

im tired of loving you.

i think

im alone now

Guys should only talk to girls when they’ve learned how to love properly. Guys shoudnt kiss a girl unless they truly love her. Guys shouldnt hold a girl’s hand or hug a girl unless they are serious about the whole damn thing. Guys should learn how to cherish girls. Guys should know that they cant have best of both worlds – its either you have one or none. Guys shouldnt miss another girl when they are with one. Guys shouldnt play dota, i bet when guys play dota they cant even remember their parents' names…. Whatever it is, guys are all jerks; simple as that.

dont agree with the dota part and the jerk part..
but guys should learn to understand us more, just as we're supposed to learn to understand them. they try. but we just try harder.

aspiring photographer

in mlt1 aftr hti lecture :>
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today i had a fruitful photog day.
everything was gg well until now

why like that wednesday

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@ loochinyi's place waiting for lml to come over but that silly girl's tkg years!!!! >:(
too bored coz loo's slpg beside me and when lml comes we're gna wake her up hehe.
her mom bought food fo us but idiot doesnt wna go dwn :<

shall w8 fo mlmlmlmlml FASTERRRRRRRR
lucas' lappy hahahaha got my camwhore pics nao imma go dlt ltr he see alr scared HEHE
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2 submissions nxt weekkkkkkkkkkkk
so sian.
FDS comic strip + GC 100 shots = busy + no sleep for nights
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LML'S HERE! YAY

love, the very very busy but act free joey.
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dont wna feel like this
but its just so unfair i cant take it
so unfair for the reasons you give me are unacceptable

really mad tired over all this
mad tired of crying
i hate salty and damp pillows
i was fine

now all i want is just to be the same old happy me i was in early 09.
everything sucks now and i dont even feel like going to school tmr
so unfair coz you lied to me

IN MY FACE.
utterly disappointed in you..

HMPH

now somebuddy playing dota.
win alr.

gross ttm

some ppl should jst die.
increasing distaste for some ppl alr.
gross ttm rlly.
some hv no balls and some are jst.... plain horny.
cant wait to _ to get _ lol.

so lucky poly friends aint anywhr near gross!
HAHAHA
and of course my babygalz. includes pbts loo b chu plus you know who you are :>

it isnt spoiling my mood and what they do wont rlly affect me but...
you know sometimes you jst hv to say smthg to make yourself feel better coz you feel like hurling.
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tues tmr and nth much is due. happy.
presentation fo onow not done, gg HAHA bai

i feel neglected by somebuddy

light

@esplanade. i like how the sun smiled into the lens of the camera :>

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was tkg care of the smelly boyfran coz poor boy was sick on sat evening :<

39.smth and he still went to work.

came back 40.5 deg in the night and i unleashed my motherly side by calling my mom fo help LOL.

sent pig to clinic and hes all better nao tks to my care and concern HAHAHAHAH

you better stop eating those crap and get well ok.

EH I WOKE HIM UP EVERY 3 HRS IN THE WEE HRS OF THE NIGHT TO FEED HIM MED OK. NOT NICE MEH?

7th 21st

hai love. happy 7th :>
on a completely unrelated note,
IVE FINISHED BRICKMEOWWWWW! ^^V

woah tired max. bai

sad ppl sad life

hai
brickboy due tmr.
mines still 2D and colourless when its supposed to be 3D and painted.
FML :>

hello i is tired max.
hehe.
i is vry sian.
i is need to do brick meow by tmr night.
i is think tmr night i is no need slp alr.
coz i is tired naow, i is stopping here.

i is missing everyone naow.
i is sad coz is my fault i is make K angry ytd.
i is rlly tired.
i is say baibai.
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hehe btw cute hor maybe i shall use panda.
coz alot of ppl using bunny what
again,

BUNNY YOUR LAN!!

hey love

i hope you see this
im sry and i love you.

bunny bunny bun bun

hvnt been doing my bunny ear poses fo a long long time naowz.
stupid lenovo!!!!!!!
no cam installed.
as in thrs a cam but it cant be used fo camwhoring.
tell me how much more useful can this lappy get?
GRRRRRR

side plaits back in action hehehehe
hair's finally long enough
but i hate my hair its still not as long as bfr
:< :< :<

K's ignoring me.......
im sry pls stop ignoring me? :<

dragonfly

the botanic day :>

saw pink dragonflies but thy jst wldnt stay still!!!!!!

and thy always say 蜻蜓点水is jst a saying but rlly!!

i see thm touching the water surface lor.

i rmb telling mrs looi its true but she didnt wna believe me!! >: (

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on text jst naoz..

J: i go buy those zao geng zao like mad one wear hehe

K: buy luh you like you buy luh :(

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

bluff u one stupid HEHE

ive been sad fo so long....

nw its time to be happy agn!!!!

OMG SO STRESSED so much work

its so damn true designers hv no time fo rest!

blank

its so weird i suddenly miss this asshole.
met him on thurs fo dinner with his ppl
kbox til 3am and we were both late fo sch the nxt day LOL
didnt tlk to you much you bloody pig keep sleeping
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i feel so.. giddy suddenly
been sleeping fo more than 12hrs maybe thts why
frm 12am ytd to 6pm today omgz.

i suddenly miss my friends
i miss pbts
i jst saw sarah loo and B ytd <3
i miss the life i had in oss
but i miss poly frdz too

omg i feel like an airhead
not literally but i feel like thrs too much air in my head i feel blank
so much work to do!!!!!
will start aftr i fill my stomach :>

I AM HUNGRY
HUNGRY MAN IZ AN ANGRY MAN
I AM ANGRY

i'd like to. really

"I’d like to meet someone who wouldn’t give up on me. Someone who would always be there no matter what. Someone who I could tell all of my secrets to, and they would trust me enough and tell me theirs. Someone who wouldn’t care what I wear, or how I have my hair done. Someone who would call me every night just to hear my voice. Someone who would know me well enough to tell when I’m mad, sad or confused. Someone who wouldn’t like me just for the looks, but for my heart and my personality. Someone who wouldn’t just love, but who would be addicted to me. Someone who would never leave me clueless or alone. Someone who would always keep their promises and mean what they say. Someone who would look out for me. Someone who would never leave me broken. Someone who would be faithful to me. Someone who would be the one for me, and I’d be the one for them. Someone who would be my Romeo and I’ll be their Juliet.”

aiyosojialatz

idk wth i jst did w my blog i jst screwd the whole thang up and im so so lazy to figure it all out jst then.
so i decide to leave it looking as horrendous as it alr is :>
hehe 2nd lame post fo todayz.

i tell u i met my bbgz jst naowz so happy nehz.
and idk why the hell so many ppl are using chubby bunny
or other bunny words becuz it IS SO HARD 2 FIND A NAME SOMEONE ELSE ISNT USING!!!

chao jay dice.
BUNNY YOUR LAN.

feather

smthg i took during the botanic garden trip :>
feel like using it as my header.

for now, i guess my life is back into place..
FOR NOW.
im that kinda person who cant talk abt the gd things tht hpn to me.
coz once i say anythg abt well, anythg
my good luck goes.
and everythg wld be bk to the way i dont want it to be.
so..... i hope my luck stays.

i rlly hope i manage to catch up those stuff i missed when i wasnt in sch :/
AHHHHHH
no sleep tonight.
can wait up til K dismisses frm wrk too :>
toods.

crystal ball

not a sad post!!! :>
just some things ive been thinking about..

im scared.
scared of the unknown. the future.
scared of change. reality.

don't think many hv given thought abt the future though.

whats gna happen in 5yrs time? 10yrs time?

marriage? new friends?

so many qns running thru my mind, yet no one has the answers

daunted by the uncertainty of life.

throughout the 17yrs of my life..

ppl came and went.

some stayed, well some chose to leave for certain reasons.

and some, had to leave.

of course, all the ppl below are ones i hold closely to my heart.

for now that is.

becoz we rlly dont know what the future holds for us.

and one thing for sure, i do love my family. a lot :>

even though i dont show it much.

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these ppl hv accompanied me thruout the fun 4yrs of my entire sec sch life.

might hv hated it at first.

but i'll gladly say i miss it now and id go thru it agn <3

hehe sl bf tk you!!! you hlpd me alot :>

then this little black girl..... my butter.

we are rlly like a couple when we quarrel lol.

cold wars, 2days no communication at all.

and in the end when we forgive each other we do the stupidest things and sing and dance tgt in the toilet. HAHA

then loochinyi. knew her coz she pinched my cheeks and i started pinching hers too.

THATS WHY I HV BREAKOUTS NOW SEE LOO YOU NV WASH HAND IMPACT LONG LASTING.

and the only time i sing well is with her.

sadly :<

and another confidante of mine. someone i can go to when im down.

I HVNT 4GET I STILL OWE YOU 10DOLLAS

xavier the gay boy.

i dont rlly like you sometimes, honestly.

ok now dont start crying.

but i have to admit youre a nice gay friend to hv. (tho a tad DAMN irritating)

you like to share. like loochinyi!!!

coz you know some ppl are not as well-off as you guys.

one thing id like to say is..

thanks for the kindness and i rlly appreciate you both.

esp loo. go your hse always got thing to eat one!!!

and i love both your moms <3

ho kah meng you stupid thing.

i know i cant rely too much on you :>

coz idk when youre gna leave me/im gna leave you?

but reliance aint such a bad thing anyway

at least you hv someone to fall back on when youre crumbling inside.

you were never thr though :<

haha and i rlly dont know how you feel inside so i shant doubt you.

or assume LOL

i hate you sometimes.

like really hate!!!!

coz the things you do are...

stupid HAHA

like leaving your cup on the wooden table.

then spoil my table >: (

or leaving your nachos under my bed and dropping crumbs all over even though you say you wont drop any!!

or worse, broken promises.

i admit sometime i overeact when you brk your promises to me.

coz. ARENT YOU SUPPOSED TO DO IT?

by giving you one last chance im damn serious.

and i HOPE im right.

if im wrong.

it just proves to me i dont mean much to you :>

so IF i do mean anythg at all pls show me.

and bitch, PLZ STOP OVERSLEEPING.

but still, tks fo the nice thgs youve done.

sunflowers, lollipops, chewing gum, elmo thing, gazillon sweets omg, panadolflumax, strepsils, coke, the countless meals you bought fo me, fuji apple yay, coke, puzzle, card, LUMPY!

dk what else la.

but it was coz of what meh said so i didnt wna give up on you just yet.

'you think anyone so free go and buy simi heffalump for you meh? still put food outside your door yadayayda'

LOL but <3>

netballerz.

these ballies hv accompanied me thru my sec sch life too!

outings with them are always crazy LOL
laugh like idiot, make the wuya sound, all that la!

wont forget.

and my new 1A56 pplz!!!!!

w/o you guys sch wld be a bore............

im like missing you all coz i didnt go to sch for 2days alr..

hopefully i'll be able to tmr :>

i wna play w you all!!! me dont wna miss out any more funnnnnnn

HAHAH and tks some of you :>

tlkd on msn w some of you and you guys actually missed me YAY

see you all sooonnn!! :>

id nv 4get my pbtz! <3

with these girls WOOOOO CAMWHORE ONLY!

and of coz our lovely heart2heart tlkz :>

nth's ever hidden frm one another so yeah i like it like that :>

YEZ I LOVE THEM EVEN THOUGH THY LOOK LIKE THAT.

WANT 2FIGHT?
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SO ALL OF YOU ABOVE. RMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

joking :>

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after saying all that,

im back to square one.

life's an uncertainty.

and no one knows what are the answers to my questions.

STILL.

39.2

what i meant to say was,
if i were you and you were me,

i'd put dwn what i had planned earlier on just to take care of you.

bitter

the pills taste GROSS.
rather down liquid med :<
i 8 the pills 2hrs ago and the taste is still in my mouth.

my throat hurts.
i h8 being sick.
i h8. i h8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey

i saw you today.
when you saw me, no smile, nothing.
you came in, i closed the door after you.

nothing said, nothing felt.
no 'hey hows your day? mine was...yadayada'
no hug.
no nothing.

today i fell sick.
you went off. you had smth on. i know. i understand.
i expected a text saying 'hey i hope you get well soon.'
just smth along the lines.
none of that.
then i texted you saying im sorry i fell sick and cldnt go w you in the end.

weak.
shldnt hv said anything.
then you text me saying youre home.
i told you i was sad coz no one took care of me.
you asked me to be independant.
when all i wanted was an 'i love you. you will get well soon okay?'
or 'go rest now and i'll see you tmr :)'

just what i needed.
to be asked to be independant when i needed someone to care for me.
thanks.

i know you love me. sure i do.

my life sux

definitely btr than haiti lives.
but.. bad enough to make me wna escape and nv let anyone find me
somewhr i wont cry
and i'll meet someone who'll make me feel safe and sound
someone i can tell everything and anything to :>

fds lesson facebook quizzes!

for my own use haha
need to log it dwn :>
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What's Your Mental Age?

Result: 6 Months Old

You love to get pampered, take lots of naps, and eat mashed bananas. Okay, we're only speculating on the mashed bananas.

And really, there's nothing wrong with that stuff. You love to be comfortable and close to the people you love. That stuff's all great! Just be sure to change your diaper every once in a while!
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What's Your Secret Talent?

Result: Excellent Shower Singer

You could be the next American Idol -- if all the episodes were taped in a locker room.

Why? You're a fantastic, Grammy Award-caliber singer, but for some reason it only works when you're taking a shower. Step out from behind the vinyl curtain and your singing skills fall somewhere between so-so and pretty great. If you can figure out a way to bring your act out of the shower, we'll all be very impressed. In the meantime, keep on singing into the shampoo bottle -- it sounds wonderful!
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The eSPIN Personality Test

Result: Saint

You can't be a better person than a saint. You're selfless, sweet, and we wouldn't be surprised if you could perform a miracle or two.

Of all the personality types on this test, yours is by far the most respectable. We mean, how couldn't everyone love you?

Just remember, though - as nice as it is to help other people, sometimes you gotta help yourself a little, too. Don't be afraid to a little selfish every now and then. Seriously! We give you permission.
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What Animal Are You?

Result: Cat

A cat's M.O. is simple: they just don't care. Seriously, an intruder could be attacking you, and a cat won't get up till it's finished licking its paws, and even then, it's not really in a hurry to help you out.

Being a cat, you're cool and refined, and you've got plenty of that cat attitude. Okay, fine, we'll say it --cattitude. Just be careful not to fall into any huge open vats of water. Cats don't like that sort of thing.
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What's Your Top Emotion?

Result: Happy

OMG LOL :)

Wide-eyed and smiling, you can find the bright side of any situation and the good qualities in anyone (even if they're pelting you with cat poo). Your energy ranges from giddy excitement to mellow calm, but you hardly ever lose your cool, positive energy. Plus, you're pretty good at managing all the bad stuff in a healthy way. Go you! Now go use your superpowers to help out the less fortunate.
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What Color Is Your Personality?

Result: Blue

Just like the color blue, you're calming and likeable, but you're also steadfast and strong. You don't tend to overpower situations (you'd rather just get along with everyone), but that doesn't mean that you go unnoticed.

Blue is a beautiful color, but don't be afraid to fire up your personality every once in a while. After all, blue's also the color of sadness...and you don't want to be a bummer, do you?
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What Does Your Name Say About You?

Result: You're Sensitive and Caring

Your name says that you're sweet, attentive and happy to lend a hand whenever a friend needs you. You're a good listener and can find the positive side to any situation.

Think about becoming a social worker, a doctor or a teacher.
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What's Wrong With You?

Result: Too Attractive

Your extreme level of hotness is distracting and offensive to everyone.

Seriously. You're so hot that it makes your friends vomit out of jealousy and strangers drool out of animal lust. Invest in some burlap sacks before everyone you know turns into drooling, vomity messes. Or maybe just invest in some mops.

And don't forget to thank your mom and dad for making you so gorgeous. They did good.
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so cool!! woohoo

pigeon

a picture i took usg the sch's dslr hehe

@botanic gardens.

post the rest up nxt time! :>

what do you want from me

and then you leave the food i craved for outside.
opened it and saw smth extra. smth tht i didnt ask you to buy.

>:(
why you like that????
why awhile make me angry then awhile make me happy???
i lied. i ate it. hehe

K

im sick of this.
i know you wont read this too.
why are you like that?

i thought responsibility was supposed to be instilled in everyone?

sian ttm

i have....
1) a pile of hwk as high as mt everest.
2) a boyfriend that fell back asleep right after he promised to come since i hvnt seen him for 3 days. breaking more promises each day :>

what's not to love?
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luckily, when all things put me down, i still hv these 2 bitches.

of course, along with other caring friends.