don't be

Don't be jealous, you ;)

Some people just know how to be sour grapes instead of trying to be a nicer person for their own good. Oh well, I guess its time life has to be nice to me instead of you. Ahyo I'm appalled. I'm so mean hehehe

merry-go-round

Spent Friday night till Saturday evening with these girls.
Had dinner with the cutest boy in the world :)

Can't wait to see my babygirls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've met everyone but them. Suckzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Finally on Sarah's birthday this Saturday everyone will be meeting everyone!!!!!
YAY hehehehehehehe.

Looking forward to tomorrow! Sentosa with bb hehe.
I should be asleep now coz he's fast asleep but I'm just too excited I felt I needed to blog teehee.
Toodles!! X

BBQ @ Zeenas

Kinda lazy to elaborate and I only have 2 pictures because the rest are mostly candids or that I haven't got them.
Meeting with the netballers cancelled off my to-do list for now, but I have yet to meet my babies!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully tomorrow but I have work to do omgOMG STUPID SCHOOL SUCKKKKKKKKKSSSS BALLZ.

Anyhoos, it was a bbq somewhere in the middle of the 15 days of CNY :)
Thanks to Zeena for the invite hehehe :) I missed them girls so much!
W went along too!! And I really don't know why Dom and W clique so well together its like Liting and I don't exist already HAHAHAHA.

Maybe its because they're both retarded :)

So........... we surprised Wenyi!!! And got her gifts! Then we played with Zeena's dogs and a schnauzer that is idk whose but its so cute it reminds me of Zaffy :(
ANYWAY ZAFFY'S HAPPY UP THERE SO I SHOULD BE HAPPY FOR HER TOO :)

Actually that's about all? Shall end off with a nice polaroid picture of us girls!

YAY HAPPY CNY/VALENTINE'S DAY ALL!
X

so so ugly

Why cover my face? Because I'm ugly. Need to start saving up for plastic surgery. Either that or tons of make up. Want to learn how to apply make-up so I will become chio.
Yups.......... Just one of those unlucky ones who are naturally lao sai. DON'T EVEN NEED TO TRY TO BE UGLY LIKE HOW THOSE CHIO PEOPLE MAKE STUPID FACES. THEY STILL LOOK CHIO NO MATTER WHAT FACEWARP DOES TO THEIR FACES.

The reason why I actually still post photos of me here and I still use a picture of my ugly face as my fb dp is because well I choose to ignore my ugliness. However I've been ignoring it for way too long something needs to be done asap.
I am not trying to make people say I'm pretty by saying I'm ugly because I genuinely think I am. And most of the time people/friends say that I'm pretty because they're supposed to? Like who the hell would go up to you and say 'HEY YOU'RE SO DAMN UGLY YOUR FACE SHOULD BE SAT ON!' right?

AND THE WORST THING IS I HAVE REALLY PUT ON WEIGHT SINCE AFTER SECONDARY SCHOOL. AND LATE NIGHTS MAKE ME FAT TOO. AND GOD KNOWS HOW MANY LATE NIGHTS I'VE HAD ALREADY. I weighed myself. People commented that I have put on weight. BAH. THIS IS NOT FAKE. I AM A FATSO. And an uglyso.

PLUS MY HIPS ARE SERIOUSLY TOO WIDE LAH HOR. I am not a sow. I don't need such huge hips because I'm not going to give birth to more than 2 kids. Body shape weird, face ugly. WTF? I know I'm supposed to be happy with what I have. But if you were me you'd really understand. How to?!

I'm glad W doesn't really care about how I look because to him I'm chio. HAHAHAHA HE BLIND. But oh my effin' gawd I look worse than a goblin. And my face is so cui its like a moon crater. My teeth are at its worse by being yellow and crooked.
Ok lah yellow need to blame myself because I drank a lot of coffee when I was 6 until it became like this. Crooked well............. genes.

SEE WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH? WALAO EH.
UGLY, FAT, FACIAL CONDITION LIKE SHIT, WEIRD BODY SHAPE, TINY BOOBS.
Everything a girl wants. NOT!!!

right

NOTHING is getting better. Shall just wallow in self-pity.

ALONE

YOU ARE NOT UNDERSTANDING AT ALL. WHAT THE FUCK IS A FAMILY? YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL DEEP INSIDE. YOU NEVER WILL. I'M BEGINNING TO HATE YOU. SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE LEAVING THIS PLACE. SO MUCH THAT I WILL NEVER COME BACK ONCE I LEAVE. I HATE HOW ONE MINUTE YOU'RE THE BEST MOM AND THE NEXT, YOU'RE SO DIFFERENT I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU. JUST BECAUSE HE CAN'T HEAR WELL I HAVE TO TAKE ALL HIS SHIT AND GIVE IN ALL THE FUCKING TIME? JUST BECAUSE I'M OLDER AND I HAVE PERFECT HEARING I DESERVE LESS CARE AND ATTENTION THAN HIM? JUST BECAUSE ITS CNY AND IT WAS HIM WHO DISTURBED ME BY HITTING ME AND SNATCHING MY PHONE I HAVE TO CALM DOWN AND NOT SHOUT OR BE ANGRY? DO I EVEN HAVE A RIGHT TO BE ANGRY ON CNY OR DO I HAVE TO ASK FOR YOUR KIND PERMISSION? WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS THIS TREATMENT? I'M FUCKING GOING CRAZY WITH THE WORKLPAD AND ALL YOU EVER DO IS GIVE ME MORE SHIT. YA HE'S THE BEST. BECAUSE ALL HE KNOWS IS TO HIT, SNATCH, SCREAM AND SHOUT. STUDIES? CRAP. HE NEVER EXCELS IN ANYTHING BECAUSE HE'S A FUCKING SPOILT KID. HE ACTS ALL ANGELIC IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. NO ONE FUCKING BELIEVES ME WHEN I SAY HE'S A DEVIL. NO ONE. FUCKING PRETENDER. YA. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE A SLIGHT HEARING PROBLEM EVERYTHING GOES YOUR WAY. YOU WILL NEVER LEARN. BECAUSE EVERYONE THINKS YOUR HEARING PROBLEM IS AN EXCUSE FOR YOU TO BEHAVE IN A STUPID WAY. FUCK YOU ALL :)

pleaseWkthxbye

2011 Bunny Year

Spent the past 10minutes doing this on Adobe Illustrator hehehe :)
Here's wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year, with leaps and bounds of health and happiness. X

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Random stuff I've saved from tumblr since idk when. Have loads more but well, just a random stash to make up my CNY post :)

Gotta love Tumblr ;) From what you feel deep within to omgwtfbbqsomeoneactuallycameupwiththisHAHAHA:
















and the funniest one of the lot to end this CNY post:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

People change

I've changed. I'm not the old me anymore. Learnt a lot the past few weeks, from my parents, and W.

After this post there would definitely be people or even friends saying that its too early to say all this and yadayada. SAVE IT. The future's a mystery. No one knows. So don't judge.

I used to laugh at couples saying all the 'We will last forever' etc. You know what? I think its stupid. Because I didn't feel that way for someone I actually laughed at someone else. No one really knows what they really feel deep inside because YOU'RE NOT THEM. Of course those flirts who say that can't be taken seriously and its just too bad people laugh at them. Other than that its only when you feel this way do you actually say it.

I want to be a better person instead of someone shallow. I don't know how to say this, and I guess many wouldn't understand. But since I've known W, I can say I've grown. You may think, ' Oh its because you're always with him and all so you think he's correct and smart and all..........blahblahblah.' Wrong.

He's smart. AND SO CUTE HEHE PLUS POINT. (All the ah lians get attracted to him because aiyah he got beng face fuck all the chao bye bye ah lians!!!) But... Its because of him I'm now closer to my parents than before I knew him. Its because of him I understand so many other things, I learnt so much new stuff. Yes we do quarrel(Which couple doesn't?!), and we both cry like qijdroajkcaklfncvnaslf while quarrelling, give each other lanjiao bin, guailan101, but we talk it out after that.

There was once my parents talked to us both because they knew we quarrelled. They told us: 'If you want to be together, you both must learn how to solve it together.' Just something along the lines. So we did. And we still will.

Which guy would surprise their girlfriend any other day wearing a handmade postman hat outside their door? Which guy would rush all the way home to grab his stuff without even bathing and rush back because of a quarrel which is not completely his fault? Which guy would stay till late just because their girlfriend is sad? Which guy would do extra work just because his girlfriend is weaker in her schoolwork?

Its because of W my parents trust me even more now. And they trust him too. I don't know what the future holds for us, but I really am proud to say he's all I ever wanted. All I ever wished for. I know I need to treasure him. I truly appreciate every single thing he's done for me, even mundane stuff like serving me a cup of green tea when he's at my place without me asking. Tell me how many guys do that for their girlfriends?????? Not many.

I can confidently say that he will never leave me alone. At least for now.
But what matters is now. And you're all that matters bb :)

Now do I understand what it feels like to have someone loving you as much as you love them.
Thank you W.
I really hope you're The One because I want to make ugly faces with you till we grow old and wrinkly :)