partial freedom

YAY CRITIQUE OVER BUT I SCREWED IT UP BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't know if i should laugh or cry.

ANYWAY AFTER TODAY I'D BE MUCH MORE FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

1. porkfoleo due 3rd sept
2. dossier due 6th sept

halfway done with my portfolio so...............
finally time to catch some sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've been a zombie these days.

time

if someone means something to you, do something before you lose him/her, be it as a lover or a best friend. Else it just might be too late. - nadnut.com

annoyance

AHHHHHHHHHHH I NEED TO RANT.
I 'HATE' MY BROTHER SO MUCH NOW.
OMG IF HE ACTUALLY STOPS BEING SO CHILDISH I'D LEAVE HIM BE.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!
PSP XBOX WHATEVER STUPID GAMEBOY AND YOUR OWN COM WHY CAN'T YOU JUST USE/PLAY WITH YOURS INSTEAD OF COMING IN MY ROOM AND PISSING ME OFF???????????????????????????

ITS SO HARD BUT IM HOLDING ALL THE VULGARITIES IN OMG I SWEAR I'M EXPLODING INSIDE.
JUST GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH :(

fairytales

whatever happened to the 'happily ever afters'?
shall just draw away~

Ragging in Indonesia: Officer assaults subordinates till their faces bleed

Ragging in Indonesia: Officer assaults subordinates till their faces bleed
CHEEBYE THIS ONE RLLY CANNOT TAHAN CHEEBYE KNN FUCKING SLAP PPL CHEEBYE FUCKING SACK THEM ALREADY LA WTH IS THE GOVT OF THAT PARTICULAR COUNTRY DOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 am and the rain is pouring

OLA~

its nearly 530am and i'm still on my fds script and guess what?
i've yet to start on my powerpoint.
probably just gonna bomb some pictures related to the wonders since it wont make any sense to slot in pictures of the final piece(which is gonna be there on critique day plus i don't have any HAHA).

meeting the babiez later around noon and i think i won't have enough sleep :(
i decide to do 2 for each drawing in my sketchbook.
as for betty edwards............ as much as i can.
which is not much HAHAHAHAHA OK BYE~~~~~~

birthday present

i rlly want a puppy :(
i miss z so much but i rlly want a puppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
or a dog.

i want a doggggggg i want one!!!
but i know my parents will never ever buy me one.
ahhhhhhhhh sux to be me.

reminder:

1. fds presentation (TODAY)
2. bdc sketchbook
3. betty edwards
4. continue sourcing for more portfolio pictures
5. portfolio cd used as thumbdrive
   
6. take pictures of gc poster and letterhead/namecard/comp. slip
7. find my vas postcards on monday!!!
8. finish my portfolio by wednesday (printed) try to print in sch on tues.
   
9. start on dossier by LATEST thursday

that shall keep me away from my puppy blues for at least a week or so.

labour omnia vincit

so i shall (try to)persevere!

1. fds presentation (whole of tomorrow)
2. bdc sketchbook
3. betty edwards
4. continue sourcing for more portfolio pictures
5. portfolio cd used as thumbdrive
   
6. take pictures of gc poster and letterhead/namecard/comp. slip
7. find my vas postcards on monday!!!
8. finish my portfolio by wednesday (printed) try to print in sch on tues.
   
9. start on dossier by LATEST thursday

i know i can.
i must.

just for laughs

click to enlarge.

HAHAHAHA MADE ME LAUGH FOR A FEW MINUTES.

apologies

off to do work. stupid self-insecurities/inferiority complex put aside :>
napping and waking up by 430am.
IMUSTWAKEUP

gc work

screenshots hehe. don't want to post the originals up because that means enlarging imperfections. HAHA
nothing compared to the industrial pros, but definitely my hard work :>
stayed up til 83o for the first, and until now for the second.
i'm quite sure this wouldn't be the best in the whole SD cohort however i'd like to thank God i completed this alive.

what's left(prioritized):

1. gc sketchbook + printing to be done BY 8PM LATEST
2. take/collocate photos of all my work for portfolio START AFTER (1) DONE
   
3. re-collocate some for hti dossier START AFTER (2) DONE
   
4. go to queensway to find out how long/how much it is to bind(!!) BY TUESDAY
   
5. fds collage touch ups (BY TUESDAY NIGHT)
6. vas sketchbook touch ups (BY TUESDAY NOON/EVENING)
7. type out/prepare naming stuff to paste on submissions (BY TUESDAY NIGHT)
8. start on bdc sketchbook (BY WED NOON/EVENING)
9. betty edwards if i have the time
10. hti journal entries

plus, im a happy girl because bestfriend passed me tix to elmo's show come september 11th!
yay thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~
before you guys assume whatever, he didn't buy it specially for me HAHA

ok toodles~

knock knock

oratory................... fds presentation. 50%.
gg.com~

vas sketchbook touch up

hti journal
hti dossier

bdc sketchbook
betty edwards

gc poster
logo design, complimentary slip

portfolio

all that in 8 days.
i believe it's possible :>

places i want to go

in singapore of course :> in random order~

1. blading @ ecp. eons since we went and my blades are rotting.
   
2. the singapore flyer(mountain tortoise i knowww)
3. singapore zoological gardens
4. marina barrage for kite flying/picnic with my bbgz again!
   
5. minds/settlers cafe~
6. shots(only my pbtz have been there!! w/o me BOO)
7. swirl art
8. ICE CREAM GALLERY IT'S BEEN SOOOOO LONGGGG
9. night safari
10. bird park
11. tiffy's cafe for banana caramel(!!!!!!)
12. haji lane to take nice pictures :>
13. clarke quay again for nice pictures and to get sticky!
14. udders for green tea ice cream
15. commonwealth for the best yu pian mi fen in town no joke
16. what's that ice cream parlour at sunset way called? WAFFLES!!
17. outram secondary for the nostalgic feel + canteen food LOVE TTM
    

that's it for now :>
bbgz i'm hinting~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

El Niño

Fernando José Torres Sanz ♥
come to think of it, i actually miss the world cup season where everyone would be shouting 'GOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLL!!!!'
and twitter would be filled with marni(sp?) and paul predictions, whether the bird's or the octopus' prediction more 'zhun', bets on who'd win the match, when the next match would be, and all those random world cup stuff la!!!!!

the most missed one is still the random 'GOOOAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLL!!!' in the night.
contributed by the whole neighbourhood. including myself. when i'm watching the world cup alone in the room.
YES ALONE. so retarded.

anyhoo, picture from tiffy's tumblr!

would have been

i guess......... i'm not over you.
no matter how mean you were.

i don't want to cry on random nights. falling asleep on wet pillows, waking up with puffy eyes.
i don't want to get reminded of all the things we did together.
making a fool outta ourselves in the toilet laughing at how stupid we looked while brushing teeth, me forcing you to watch chick flicks and you ended up falling asleep, you making me make ribena everytime you come over.........

now i feel something whenever i see the cup you always used, the place you'd put your bag, the shows you like to watch.
the songs which remind me of you.
i can't bear to delete them but i don't want to play them at all for fear i'd cry.

until now... i haven't got an answer.
and i never will.
because you chose to leave.
i hoped you'd ask me to stay.
not just by asking, but by your actions............
high hopes lead to bigger disappointments.
i was disappointed by you yet again.

even spelling the word 'disappointed' reminds me of you because you read my blog before we were together and offered to change it because i misspelled it.

was i not good enough?

no matter how hard i've tried, how much i cried.
i just keep wondering........
why would you do this to me?

siloso beach resorts

happy 17th yk! :>
finally 17 huh. HAHA
anyway thanks for the invite~ we had fun hehehe.
hope you had(and you're still having) fun too!

so........... yesterday meaning the 20th was impromptu-go-out-with-tiffy day.
and we managed to catch step up 3 at 14bux per ticket!
ridiculously priced lor!!!!!! feel so cheated.
but nonetheless the movie was great <3
natalie was SUPER HOT HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH
yes luke was damn hot too omfgwtfbbq i'd pay to watch it again.
just..... not 14bux. LOL

ohohoh and i received tao's text saying he saw me.
then i asked him why he didn't say hi.
his reply?
'later call wrong person i lao kui hahahahahahha'
SO CUTE RIGHT MY CLASS REP!!!!!!!

ok back on track. so after the movie we headed to sentosa!
for birthday boy yunkai's celebration.
was quite impromptu too because i only saw the texts and missed calls after the movie.
i think we damn steady because we went there right after packing food.
was fun because i saw the chalet people again after less than a week.
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
i love my friends! <3

and i'm off watching youtube videos again.
tata~

do or die

i notice this space here has been wordy for quite a few posts long.
maybe i finally realise the need to blog in proper english(with a bit of singlish and whats-not here and there).
remember there was this once someone told me to blog properly on my tagboard lor!!!
reason being i was already close to 17 and i should blog in proper english.

whatever.
maybe now i shall!
anyway, point of this post is....................

click to enlarge :>
some tips i figured out guys(those with girlfriends!!!!) would need especially since almost all of them don't have brains.
either that or they just think we girls aren't worth it.
so guys..........

to read or not to read, that's up to you, really :>

oriental

zhang zi yi.
chio right :(
the last picture above is my favourite.
picture credits to google.

memoirs of a geisha was one great movie with her as one of the female leads.
HAHA i think gong li is too old to be chio.
but she has that...... aura that makes her attractive!
just less attractive than zhang zi yi :>

this is the only picture i can find of her with the least make up on.
undeniably chio, still.
the contours of her face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please ignore the few freckles because i believe almost everyone has at least 1 freckle on the face.
i couldn't find a picture of her nude face that was big enough to post.
anyway i think she's so chio she deserves this post all to herself.

not like she cares but still.

reminiscence

okay i've got so much to say but i'm not sure if i can remember them all.
want to blog it so one day i'd look back and feel happy reading it all over again :>

yesterday was the bbq the basketballers + some of the guys invited us to.
so nice of them :> thank you all!!
felt so happy because we were talking about the secondary school days,
the life, the teachers, the pranks, the people, crushes, problems, just.. everything that made up our secondary school lives.
ahhhh nostalgia~
didn't want to leave but we just had to - at around 4 in the morning hahaha.
really just wanted to sit there hoping time'd freeze at that moment we could continue talking about all that.

to think i had a crush on errol at the same time as tiffy and she and i cried to each other on the phone(!!!!!!!!!!!)
and that we could laugh at what was once a 'top secret'.
and how jj was thought as a pervert and (i think)he still is because apparently leopards don't change their spots do they? HAHA
oh and how meh crushed on niku.
and our petty grudges....
and how we'd piss the teachers off especially in sec 2 LOL
okay i'd just keep 'and'-ing because seriously, the fun we had? HAHA LOADS.
so many moments brought up i wish i could relive it the exact same way.

remember we had KENAS or KANES, then JAMTAB......
1/5 family, then we had this collage of our pictures put together~
and the guys were super protective of us. aww <3

and the guys are so gentlemanly now lor~
its like those kids who grew up toether with us.
errol peeling the prawns and sl constantly asking us if we were hungry and all.
and zf passing us satay and all!
plus they were so cute and it was super heartwarming to see them taupok each other!
HAHA and they proceeded to 'rape' one another.
so cute like kids <3
anyway one thing's for sure:
i'd never want to lose any of you guys as friends :>
hope the feeling's mutual huh HEHE.

on to the sad part......
i think i'm not exactly over you yet.
seeing you yesterday just proved that point.
sometimes i wonder how you seem to feel fine when i'm not even close to feeling fine.
i guess it was right i gave up on you because it was time i actually realised you didn't feel a thing :>
maybe i'm wrong(hope i am), but i guess it takes more than just time.
willpower maybe. or maybe i just don't wna forget you somewhere inside of me.
i don't know myself.
but rest assured i will eventually.
tiffy told me something like this:
'you never really stop loving someone, because if you do, you never really loved him before'
true. for me, at least.
used to think what life'd be without you and i cringed.
because i couldn't imagine what it'd really be.

but now i don't need to imagine.
because i know that what was there for me to fall back on then wouldn't be there for me ever again.
to think i teared on the bus alone on the way home.
all that's left of us were the happy memories.
i hope you don't forget them because that was our last promise :>
-
pictures up when i get them from tiffy!
no group pics though.

stupid pile of work.
ALL UNDONE WOOHOO YAY ME IM AWESOME~
shall go jog later. really need to lose some fats.
breakfast at tiffany's(HAHAHA) was awesome hehe. bacon on toast yumz :>

interior design

a lot may be thinking......... interior design's a fun thing because you actually get to design your own space.
your house, a garden, whatever.
but i assure you its nothing as simple as a beautiful room.
measurements of every nook and cranny have to be taken into consideration.
every tiny detail in the room contributes to the overall look of the finished design space.

then i think again.
is this what i really want in life?
to be designing spaces?
for one i HATE numbers. and to measure every single thing to make my room chio is disastrous.
plus cf is already killing me.
i cant imagine the rest of my 2 years in poly i think i'll just commit suicide one fine day.
math, you really killed me this time.

i don't really think of math as an important subject because seriously,
you won't go around sg trying to do math with every step you take.
'oh, the car is travelling at 67km/h, so what would be its average speed if it travels a good 2km?'
ya right.
the closest you'd think of with regards to that 67km/h car is that its going so slowly you wonder why the other drivers don't honk.

i seriously rather be doing something language/business related.
all thanks to math i'm stuck with design.
i'm not saying design sucks because it really doesn't.
its so fun but its SO DAMN STRESSFUL YOU WANT TO KILL SOMETIMES.
but yeah i'm stuck with you, interior design.
i just hope the softwares i need to learn don't kill me before i kill myself.

woe is me.

i don't care

resorts world sentosa/marina bay sands

after taking eons to upload the photos do i realise i shld hv uploaded the rws ones first. fml.
oh well anyways,
MBS fo xav's national-day-see-fireworks-party!
tks fo the invite x. i rlly laughed the shit outta myself that night HAHA.

photobooth on x's mac~



bb addicts haha


i like kena taupok only xav you look skinny you not light at all


did i mention i finally saw my nadoo luv?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?
been years since i saw her omfg i hughug kizzkizz

xav's pretty fran and her uber cute baby sis!!!!

HAHA joke face93





imitating someone hehehe:


and we step one bb king/queens:

and the end. stayed over w meh and xav. left the nxt morning hehehe.
idk why we took so many grp pics coz sometimes we totally forget!!!
fireworks were awesome much :>
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RWS hard rock hotel, 20th june 2010

otw thr walkg to the hotel

reached!


pics are kinda in sequence so that was that we did when we saw the bed:


THE ROOM WALLS ARE SOUNDPROOF!!!!! GOT THAT IPOD THINGY

went out to get drinks fo the smelly ppl





stoopid boyz! HAHA




the pic abv walao my nostrils like expand


<3

we hadda game of twister!
they were all tangled up but i was sb relaxed LOL still can use phone


then we slept and it was time to go home~

hehe tks fo the fun loochinyi! <3
but.... i'd rmb that day forever. sry for breaking down guys... i couldnt help it.
thank god you all were thr. really.
because idk what wouldve happened to me if i didnt decide to go.

now that im actually single(yes the fb married to ongsoonlee thing was fake obviously!!), i realised how reliant i was.
but nvm, because ive learnt the hard way :>

those happy memories would no doubt still be kept in a little corner of my heart,
though i hope i forget the hurt soon enough.
i can now say im ready to be independant.
im all grown up now, and i am to depend on myself.
i finally understand why parents are so afraid to let us fall in love.
its because they know it hurts and they dont want us to feel the hurt just yet.
but what i really dont understand is this:
why dont they let us learn the hard way instead?
once bitten twice shy, they say.
then again some foolish people choose to have pre-maritial xxx.
ABSTINENCE!!!!!!!! LOL
okay conclusion: its hard to be parents :<

so much typing and it boils down to the fact boys suck.
ONLY WHEN THEY BECOME YOUR BOYFRIEND.
whats with broken promises which lead to broken hearts?
and pinning high hopes on people jst lead to bigger disappointments.
hey you, yes you. im disappointed in you.
i expected more than that frm you.
but you chose to hide smth frm me.

whatever. life's an irony.