reminiscence

okay i've got so much to say but i'm not sure if i can remember them all.
want to blog it so one day i'd look back and feel happy reading it all over again :>

yesterday was the bbq the basketballers + some of the guys invited us to.
so nice of them :> thank you all!!
felt so happy because we were talking about the secondary school days,
the life, the teachers, the pranks, the people, crushes, problems, just.. everything that made up our secondary school lives.
ahhhh nostalgia~
didn't want to leave but we just had to - at around 4 in the morning hahaha.
really just wanted to sit there hoping time'd freeze at that moment we could continue talking about all that.

to think i had a crush on errol at the same time as tiffy and she and i cried to each other on the phone(!!!!!!!!!!!)
and that we could laugh at what was once a 'top secret'.
and how jj was thought as a pervert and (i think)he still is because apparently leopards don't change their spots do they? HAHA
oh and how meh crushed on niku.
and our petty grudges....
and how we'd piss the teachers off especially in sec 2 LOL
okay i'd just keep 'and'-ing because seriously, the fun we had? HAHA LOADS.
so many moments brought up i wish i could relive it the exact same way.

remember we had KENAS or KANES, then JAMTAB......
1/5 family, then we had this collage of our pictures put together~
and the guys were super protective of us. aww <3

and the guys are so gentlemanly now lor~
its like those kids who grew up toether with us.
errol peeling the prawns and sl constantly asking us if we were hungry and all.
and zf passing us satay and all!
plus they were so cute and it was super heartwarming to see them taupok each other!
HAHA and they proceeded to 'rape' one another.
so cute like kids <3
anyway one thing's for sure:
i'd never want to lose any of you guys as friends :>
hope the feeling's mutual huh HEHE.

on to the sad part......
i think i'm not exactly over you yet.
seeing you yesterday just proved that point.
sometimes i wonder how you seem to feel fine when i'm not even close to feeling fine.
i guess it was right i gave up on you because it was time i actually realised you didn't feel a thing :>
maybe i'm wrong(hope i am), but i guess it takes more than just time.
willpower maybe. or maybe i just don't wna forget you somewhere inside of me.
i don't know myself.
but rest assured i will eventually.
tiffy told me something like this:
'you never really stop loving someone, because if you do, you never really loved him before'
true. for me, at least.
used to think what life'd be without you and i cringed.
because i couldn't imagine what it'd really be.

but now i don't need to imagine.
because i know that what was there for me to fall back on then wouldn't be there for me ever again.
to think i teared on the bus alone on the way home.
all that's left of us were the happy memories.
i hope you don't forget them because that was our last promise :>
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pictures up when i get them from tiffy!
no group pics though.

stupid pile of work.
ALL UNDONE WOOHOO YAY ME IM AWESOME~
shall go jog later. really need to lose some fats.
breakfast at tiffany's(HAHAHA) was awesome hehe. bacon on toast yumz :>

interior design

a lot may be thinking......... interior design's a fun thing because you actually get to design your own space.
your house, a garden, whatever.
but i assure you its nothing as simple as a beautiful room.
measurements of every nook and cranny have to be taken into consideration.
every tiny detail in the room contributes to the overall look of the finished design space.

then i think again.
is this what i really want in life?
to be designing spaces?
for one i HATE numbers. and to measure every single thing to make my room chio is disastrous.
plus cf is already killing me.
i cant imagine the rest of my 2 years in poly i think i'll just commit suicide one fine day.
math, you really killed me this time.

i don't really think of math as an important subject because seriously,
you won't go around sg trying to do math with every step you take.
'oh, the car is travelling at 67km/h, so what would be its average speed if it travels a good 2km?'
ya right.
the closest you'd think of with regards to that 67km/h car is that its going so slowly you wonder why the other drivers don't honk.

i seriously rather be doing something language/business related.
all thanks to math i'm stuck with design.
i'm not saying design sucks because it really doesn't.
its so fun but its SO DAMN STRESSFUL YOU WANT TO KILL SOMETIMES.
but yeah i'm stuck with you, interior design.
i just hope the softwares i need to learn don't kill me before i kill myself.

woe is me.

i don't care

resorts world sentosa/marina bay sands

after taking eons to upload the photos do i realise i shld hv uploaded the rws ones first. fml.
oh well anyways,
MBS fo xav's national-day-see-fireworks-party!
tks fo the invite x. i rlly laughed the shit outta myself that night HAHA.

photobooth on x's mac~



bb addicts haha


i like kena taupok only xav you look skinny you not light at all


did i mention i finally saw my nadoo luv?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?
been years since i saw her omfg i hughug kizzkizz

xav's pretty fran and her uber cute baby sis!!!!

HAHA joke face93





imitating someone hehehe:


and we step one bb king/queens:

and the end. stayed over w meh and xav. left the nxt morning hehehe.
idk why we took so many grp pics coz sometimes we totally forget!!!
fireworks were awesome much :>
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RWS hard rock hotel, 20th june 2010

otw thr walkg to the hotel

reached!


pics are kinda in sequence so that was that we did when we saw the bed:


THE ROOM WALLS ARE SOUNDPROOF!!!!! GOT THAT IPOD THINGY

went out to get drinks fo the smelly ppl





stoopid boyz! HAHA




the pic abv walao my nostrils like expand


<3

we hadda game of twister!
they were all tangled up but i was sb relaxed LOL still can use phone


then we slept and it was time to go home~

hehe tks fo the fun loochinyi! <3
but.... i'd rmb that day forever. sry for breaking down guys... i couldnt help it.
thank god you all were thr. really.
because idk what wouldve happened to me if i didnt decide to go.

now that im actually single(yes the fb married to ongsoonlee thing was fake obviously!!), i realised how reliant i was.
but nvm, because ive learnt the hard way :>

those happy memories would no doubt still be kept in a little corner of my heart,
though i hope i forget the hurt soon enough.
i can now say im ready to be independant.
im all grown up now, and i am to depend on myself.
i finally understand why parents are so afraid to let us fall in love.
its because they know it hurts and they dont want us to feel the hurt just yet.
but what i really dont understand is this:
why dont they let us learn the hard way instead?
once bitten twice shy, they say.
then again some foolish people choose to have pre-maritial xxx.
ABSTINENCE!!!!!!!! LOL
okay conclusion: its hard to be parents :<

so much typing and it boils down to the fact boys suck.
ONLY WHEN THEY BECOME YOUR BOYFRIEND.
whats with broken promises which lead to broken hearts?
and pinning high hopes on people jst lead to bigger disappointments.
hey you, yes you. im disappointed in you.
i expected more than that frm you.
but you chose to hide smth frm me.

whatever. life's an irony.