c

yes, that of all things
you got away a yr ago, a very close shave
your doctor told you to refrain frm eatg some kinda foodstuff
like those tht are high in cholestrol
you did listen, for the first few mths
but you didnt follow it through out

i feel stupid, i feel pissed
everytime i see you smoking
aftr tht very close shave, you still do the same stupid thing,
that is to smoke.
omfg do you knw hw much i hate you,
i hate you for being stupid
i hate you for loving the ppl arnd you, but not treasuring them, hurting thm instead
i hate you for making aunt and cousin suffer
i hate you for not knowing how to think
i hate you because you smoke!!!!!
i hate you for not tkg care of yourself
you have a happy family,
and you have all the luck you want but you jst wasted it.
you doted on me, yes you did
BUT DID YOU EVER LEARN HOW TO TREASURE YOURSELF?!
omg i cant believe this is happening
whn i jst heard it frm mom i was like okay

and that effing sentence was repeated in my mind
then i rlly knew.
i had sensed tht smthg wld go wrg tday
and yes, its your stupidity.
for smoking,
for harming yourself,
for wasting your hard-earned $ on cigarettes
for doing all that, making ppl worry.

because of you, jst you alone
can make many ppl arnd you worry.
your family,
your parents in heaven,
your relatives
your friends.
now its too late to regret.
ihopeyougetwellsoon, tc and iloveyouk.