My last post was in November 2012. It is end March 2013. Wow.
I am such a hardworking person I deserve an award :-)
Maybe I should get back on track and start blogging again. I remember I used to blog to get things off my mind. It was such a good hobby to have because I wouldn't start blowing my top off everyone that ticked me. I guess as I grow I just also grow into different ways of releasing the pent up stress and anger. I am such a bad person.
These few months.........these 3plus 4 months have not been the easiest for me. I still have my struggles, things that I'd rather keep to myself/people that I am close to. So many things have happened in just a few months (not even more than the fingers on my hand, mind you), it makes me so scared to actually move forward in life because hey, who knows what more life-changing things are gonna happen in the years to come, if so much has happened and changed in just 4 months?
Family........not the ideal family life I would die to have, but I'm still thankful anyway. Just because I still have a roof over my head, I still live with the people I love and care for. Friends, can't say how disappointed I am with myself because I really haven't been the best friend I should be. School. Not that bad a student but the grades have dipped a little since the first semester in RP. CCA. I would say it's the only thing that is keeping me going. Being the Marketing Director of Replug really isn't the simplest job, with so many events currently going on/ are in-planning/ coming up. Too busy but I really am not complaining because it does get my mind off things.
Sometimes I feel like I'm still too young to be dealing with the things that are happening, but then again, I'm going to be 20 this year. No more 1 at the front of my age. Just seems like I'm growing up too fast. To think that I actually wanted to grow up when I was 8 because I thought being a teenager was fun. HELL TO THE NO would I ever want that again if I were to be 8.
Used to blog up my new year resolutions just so I could 'be a better person'. Then realized how bullshit it actually is because I never do keep to them. Shall be realistic and make mental notes to remind myself instead of posting it up so people get to read about how nice I want to become. If I don't follow they'll have reason to say I suck so I might as well not. Ha.
This post is wordy.
I wish I didn't stop blogging. So I could have documented all the events that have happened, and all the meetups and whatnot.
Oh well I did stop anyway so no point being all regretful. Should just start again. :-)
Because I came back after so long, I hope there is still some magic left here. With that in mind, I wish that my life gets a little better; no heartbreaks, happy family and social life, good grades and CCA achievements. I want to manage my time better. I should. Ah. The 1/3 is coming back in 32 days. :-) Till the next time.
Much love xx