inferiority complex

hi. today i am gg to scare you all with a bigass picture of me and my pimple face.
(and fugly hair)

see how screwed my face is? like kena car bang.
AND before i kena car bang i dont hv enough sleep.
so i have pimples.
then the car driver see me not happy come bang me.
resulting in.............................

this.
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now give me 10 reasons if you think im chio.
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
betcha cant even come up with one ya?
so stop trying to console me alr.
and fuckers who think i blogged this just because i want ppl to praise me and say im pretty,
WELL FUCK OFF.
because NO I HONESTLY THINK I AM UGLY.
and if you wna be more cheebyed by saying things that will make me feel worse,
BY ALL MEANS GO AHEAD HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ok so God's not even trying to console me because the angels he sent down to be my friends?
GAM PUA CHIO.
sorry i dont blame God but.
i mean, i cant stop being friends with my pbtz, loochinyi, sarahchu, class 56 girlz, liting and the netballers and all the girls that i am in contact with (not saying if i nv list you down means you ugly but maybe you rlly ugly like me la)
JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE CHIO-ER THAN ME RIGHT?

thats jst too idiotic. LOL
but see, if i go out with ppl who are chio, i will seem uglier.
which IS the case and also THE ugly truth.

ok actually this is just a ranting post la if you cant tell.
say so much in the end nth will change coz i'll still go out with those chiobus and remain ugly because i dont want to go for plastic surgery coz i am BROKE AND I HUMJI SCARED PAIN.
kisses,
uglygalgal93@knnfmlwhyisougly.com :>

bulletproof

pimple outbreak.
pls be my friend still.
:<

need to buy plain tees! shall do some printing!!!!!!!!
canvas tote @taka art fran hehe :>

subtle way of saying

"ASSHOLE, DON'T WASTE MY TIME."

lighter

im feeling better alr!
rmb how sucky i felt that night................

HAHA but nonetheless letting it out did help
and i had fun what night coz bstfrd adriel and lucas were damn cute!!! :>
and tks to loo jes and ml too i luv you all <3
i believe we took more than jst this pic HAHAHAHA

submission over yaaaaay :>
fo naoz.
but better than nth right!!!
anw im still awake coz i woke up frm my nap to do a report HEHE
toods!

say hey

Guess who's jaydan okay? I'd never get bored with him ard <3 shall tk a short nap til abt 10 and get my ass online to do the onow report. 600 words. Killer much?

joke of the century

When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow”.

really?
you're not trying. at all.
guess i'm nthg to you :>

if

if.... if i say i want you back.
would it happen?

not sleeping. partly because i hvnt finished my work..
and partly coz i can't.

after putting on a strong front

im still feeling all vulnerable inside
waiting

for you to do smth so i can forgive you
so we're good again
but you will never
because to you im not worth
and you never felt anything for me since day one

i want to stop thinking abt you
i need to stop texting you
i must stop loving you

just when i thought ive taken a huge step forward
im back to square one

faith

"Its okay. Its okay to want someone you can’t have. Its okay to want something more. Its okay to cry when you’re hurt, and its okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not, its always going to be okay. Thats just how life works. Sometimes things don’t work out how you want them to, and most of the time, it seems like they never will. But eventually, everything is going to iron out in some way or another. You just have to believe, keep your faith, and learn to move on."
- r-aainbow.blogspot.com :>

tks loo :>
so now im gonna imagine that youre actually missing me, you loved me and you still love me, you need me, and that you cant get over me!
even though it may not be true, i choose to be happy thinking that what im imagining is real.

HO KAH MENG YOU ARE CRAZY OVER ME YES I KNOW YOU ARE.
:D

wo shi yi tou zhu

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because fo the past few days, i have been eating SOOO MUCH FOOD
i think it can feed half of africa's starving ppl.

ok not THAT much but rlly enough to scare you away ok.
I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its like. not food binge. not everything BUT
JUST PLAIN HUNGER OMG WTF IS WRONG WITH ME YOU KNOW I GET HUNGRY JUST AFTER 1-2 HRS AND I CAN EAT NON STOP
i honestly swear i feel like gg to the doctor.

why

why dont i have the courage to just let go
why do i keep looking back
how i wish the one i fell in love with wasnt you

seashell

:> ph. by me, dinah's cam!
the sentosa day out w 56 hahaha
was fun when we had dindinz over @superdog LOL
cowboy + frog......... wonder what kinda babiez
amphibian/mammal?

what i want

i wanted the breakup
and yes i told you

but deep inside im hoping that you'll do smth to make me forgive you
and take you back
but you're not doing anything
and you probably never will.. :>
can say this here coz i know you wont read it haha

which is.......
good id say
coz idk how to tell this to the ppl that care
so they cant scold me right in my face lol

its so hard to let go but i know this is the only way i can be happy again
to let go of who i once thought id be happy with

im sorry heart.
i gave you to the wrong person
and now im taking you back
i know you dont want to leave
but you know you have to in order to be happy
you dont want to be broken again do you?
hahah come on heart you know you can do this :>

and then all over again, i start wishing you'll come back to me...........
when will this ever stop
its tormenting

tumblr

"Find a real guy: A guy who won't give up on you, who will keep chasing you 'til he gets you, who will keep doing the things he did when he was chasing you, who will fight for you and your love, a guy who will not only tell you he loves you but shows it."

"I'm scared of serious relationships because I feel like they're only good in the beginning. Everything after that goes downhill and ends because people get too comfortable or not want to try anymore. I'm hoping someone can change that for me..."

mine wasn't good from the beginning.
i think........... and think....................................











how i wish the one i fell for was one i could depend my happiness on.

i wish

i could say.....
'my boyfriend treats me like a princess. he treats me the best. he was one i never could have asked for. he loves me more than i need him. hes more than what i deserve. hes all i ever wanted. its 8mths since we got tgt, and from the start up till now, his love never faded and im still his princess.'

you never gave me the chance.

thanks for the memories

to me, you've not done enough.
all you've given me were excuses and more excuses to cover up for your excuses.

to you, you've done more than enough.
all you did was not intentional(according to you) and that you love me and your excuses are the truth and not excuses.

in conclusion, we both think different.
yes i love you. but i'm letting go.
because i love myself more than i love you.
i loved you more than i loved myself in the past, and all i got were disappointments because i took us seriously.
i don't want to be disappointed any more.
you did nothing to prove you loved me and i know that we'll never make it though happy.
so what for?

people reading this, it isn't fair if i said K sucked.
because at times he did try to make me happy.
maybe my expectations were too high.
but yeah he can be rlly sweet at times.
so no hard feelings! :>

K, if you don't already know, i love you.
but its over.
and you don't need to juggle your time ard so many things now you hv one less thing to worry about.
i wasnt expecting us to be like this, but i want to save myself from falling deeper.
i want to find someone that will love me, and if possible, love me more than he loves himself.
thank you for your time with me.
was rlly looking forward to your first bday aftr we got tgt.
but i guess time ruined everything for us.
goodbye love :>

breaking free

IM SINGLE AND IM HAPPY :>
HONESTLY. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH

happy fathers' day

HEHE DAD I LUV U

birthdays

HI

i got my bb today
i am happy becoz finally i can chck twitter and fb on the go

happy bday selene teo <3, lee wee leong, ho kah meng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

breakeven

maybe another post in the night.
since readers are in scarce numbers hahaha.
guess i wontbe able to get my nuffnang moolah :<

guess i'll brg my phone out today, reply everyone that contacts me xcept you.
hehe i find it easier to just ignore nw tht im numbed by the pain you inflicted on me.
even if i do tear its jst for a little while.
i realize that i don't live for you but for myself.
it's time to get a little selfish here~
in the meantime, i guess life's treating me well enough?
ive got good friends i can count on (OMG LUV PBTZ hehe :>)
and yeh i guess my poly m8s are a gr8 bunch too <3

plus i jst met up with sarah and i saw liting jst the other day fo spper @tiong ajisen!
jst need some time to catch a breather and go on with my sch work :>

sentosa nxt mon with 56 bbz!! :>
tues and wed sch to complete our works!
hopefully for fri sat and sun i catch up on what i needa do.
ok dad's rambling. bye (WTF BBQ HES SCOLDING ME -.-)
STOP SCREAMING AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the more we get together the merrier we'll be

swirl art @rv :>

i know the time's 4am and its ridiculously l8/early and im not asleep.
body clock's gg haywire!!!!!
but i like HAHAH
shall go jog tmr (HOPEFULLY) because
i want a hot bod like SHAKIRA SHAKIRA :>
current obsession with the song waka waka coz its soooooooooo cute its on replay!!!

no (LOOK@TITLE) fo today HAHAHAHAH

live like we're dying

longggggggggggg post! ^^V
hope thr are still readers here coz the tagboard's been pretty much dead :>
HAHAHA okay.........................
so everything was taken during our last day of sch b4 the hols!
fds presentation day :>

ya la laugh la hor. HAHAHA LIKE WAITRESS.

mich and dinah! :>

mich the siao again HAHA

loo eng! :>

shaun! :>

ok like retard only. dinah and her boat HAHA

weikang the NEH! :>

jiggly my lao ma! :>

yong maisiao :>

cowboy! :>

dahao! :>

huimin! :>

bingrong! :>

tao! :>

john! :>

*wink wink* we all know why HAHAHAHAH

HAHAHA trademark cover mouth pose hehe ^^V

jiggly pose :>

the cowboy pose! HAHAHA

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that pretty much sums up my fds formal wear day.

was fun! love 1A56 HEHEZ (ok maybe minus 1 :>)
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marina barrage with my babygalz! :>

when meh was in the toilet......................

when tiffy was in the toilet.

OK JOKING but meh was rlly in the toilet in the above pic HAHA

ok and that was one good day!!!!!!! :>

we had a picnic in the shade and then went out to fly meh's cheena kite.

but her kite like cool only!! heheheh <3

days like these w the bbz make me fly high high HAHAHAHAHAH

well today was well spent with my bbz agn

coz we went to laguna courtesy of tiffytoke :>

pictures up when i get em! HEHE

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K's big day in.... 3days :>

lets see if he's nice enough to make me get what i planned done.

i currently love my life coz...... it's too precious to be wasted so i gotta

(LOOK @ TITLE)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

laguna

heading thr nao and i shall blog tonight! :>
so many things to update about! ahahah
been a real procrastinator lately ZZZZ BAD BAD BAD

JOEY IS MY NAME. PROCRASTINATING IS MY GAME.
mermaidcharades.blogspot
HAHAHAHAHAHA hopefully a long pictureful (LOL) post tonight!

no one

14 months ago, I accidentally broke one of my best friends’ fingers. 4 days after that, he asked me to be his girlfriend, saying “You could break every bone in my body, and i would still love you forever and ever”. We have been dating ever since. His unconditional love and understand GMH.

tell me, sg whr to find this kind????

still the same

nothing will ever change.

i rlly miss times when im not alone at home even if the whole family's out coz i still have you.
the times you stay outside waiting for me to finish my showers haha.
the times you look at me when you're hungry or you want to go out for walks.
the times you whimper and snout-nudge me coz you want tummy rubs.
the times you look at me and i know i'll be fine with you ard.
the times you barked at dad when he scolded me.
the times you ran like crazy when i brought you dwn.
the times you met dachers and baby and ate their dinners(!!)
the times when i wasnt home for days and once i stepped in you jumped on me.
the times you begged for tabletop scraps.
the times you turned from shaggy to bald after grooming sessions.
the times you felt unwell and how we stayed by you.
the times when we had to be out late but went home early just to feed you.
the times we left lights on as we feared you might be afraid of the dark.
the times......

you were around.
love you z.

critique

this is obviously a scheduled post because the time says 1111pm LOL
today was critique.
knn like late only i was given 2mins along with the others who were late.
the rest were given 5mins.
yah whatever i believe my comic is cute enough.

formal wear made me lookl ike a waitress.
but i survived and went home with it!!!
slept when i reached home all the way til ard 12plus am.
HAHAHAHA formal wear pics up tmr!!!!!
hopefully i dont look like some idiot :>

and ive come to realize i rlly hv nice classmates :>
WOOHOO POLY LIFE ROCKZ
but submissions like sian only.

as busy as a bee!

the pros of being in a design course: hv artsy fartsy shots taken of you by your friends! HAHAHAHA
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got bk ard 1115?
left sch only @1045 :<
was dg some printing and we had macz fo dindin in vas classrm!
north pole coz it was sup colddddddd

meeting those babiez earlier tmr ard 11 fo more printing!!!
CUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
but im still a happy girl :>

K's @his class chalet. til fri
LOL idk why im still so happy
i love my life nw coz its packed and im (look @ title)

good days

cowboy's (fail) picnic @marina barrage!
turned out to be quite a fun 9t tho :> hahahaha
thought the dam was gna cause some rlly big effect but we didnt even know whether anythg hpnd.
home was sleepy time almost immediately! HAHA
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then was t.g.i.fridays @town with my babygalz, xav and franz!
x's treat so tks sista! LOL ya you know why sista instead of bro LOL

we decided to go for kbox aftr that coz everyone decided to go home.
so it was jst x and i.
clubbing songs to wake us up!

then after kbox was ard 12 closing 1 so we decided to....

play with catch-toy machines!

dk what you call that la kiap kiap machines? LOL

then x couldnt get enough of the thrill so he kept playing.

until he got me an elmo, himself a domo and a stitch.

MY GOD

homed after prince of persia!

damn nice la hahahahahah coz the guy hot girl hotter! :>

K came aftr his work. stupid boy hmph LOL

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today was kbox with the babiez of 56!

them tkg pic w my signature cover face pose LOL

HEHEHEHEHEH HAPPY ANW

but i was late coz i slept late and joined them late :p

dinner was toriQ and sitting at the corridors outside taka.

fun day still. cine fo a lil slack and homey homey.

imma happy girl today, tmr, tmr's tmr and everyday after! HAHHAH

hyper only la naowz

ok i go shit alr hehe

stop thinking

The worst is when you show the one you love the most vulnerable sight you have and yet, they don't do anything to help.

And when you try to heal yourself with the last inch of hope you have, you lie to yourself that everything will be alright again, the fact is,
once the harm is done, only the one that did it can heal you. Though it'll never be fully healed, at least it helps, a bit. And it's the only thing that helps. michelleishigh@blogspot(but you never will)

This is what I would do: ► the laughter, ▌▌ the memories, █ the pain, ◄◄ the happiness.
thelovestories@twitter (yeah if i cld i wld)
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yeh maybe frm now on i shall jst stop expecting anything good to happen.
esp if it comes frm you. lol

nths rlly gg on btw, if anyone thats reading is curious
its jst me thats always expecting too much coz im such a perfectionist
in a sense that everything i want/expect must go my way
so ya, high expectations and high hopes make me fall from a higher point
thus im not gonna hope anymore.
hard to but its worth a try instead of me feeling miserable almost everyday HAHA :>
you girls know guys have simpler minds and they, sometimes dont ever know what we're thinking abt
then in the end we get all pissed off but they still dont know why we're pissed and just apologise to make us happy.
LOL

K if youre reading this, sry i cant understand you jst yet. lol
i know from the start youre like this and you still do what you do.
but i cant accept it still :>
and thats too bad coz i know we both cant accpet each other in one way or another
idk if love's present instead of jst reliance, or maybe even a habit to hv each other ard.
but yeh i hope it is.
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running so late alr supopsed to meet 1A56babiez @cityhall by 2
its alr 230 and im blogging omg what a bitch LOL
gotta run nao!

lurvezxxs, J.

i just hope that

one day i'd find someone who loves me more than i do.

or just the equal amt of love i give, i take.

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Find someone else who loves you more and treats you better. Instant cure to heartbreak. That, or stuff your face with your favourite food, listen to good music, go out with your friends and family and just find ten thousand ways to remind yourself that you're better off without him.

I don't know about true love, because I don't believe there will be somebody absolutely perfect for us awaiting... Love is what you make it out to be, about how much effort we'd like to put into the relationship to make it work. underage-girl.blogspot

i haven't found you........
and i know im not worth your love
because im not pretty, neither am i smart, or sweet, or patient, or whatever traits a good girlfriend has.

maybe i'll never ever find someone who'll love me more than i do,
because im just not worth

neh ni neh ni poo poo

stupid rascal giving ugly face.
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another day gone. life still sux.
holidays are said to be shit coz thr'll be hwk.
then doesnt it equate to no hols?

life sux. rlly.
nth cheers me up.
im still unimportant and ugly and worthless.